Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Wouldn't This Be Nice?

We really need a king-size bed...just for this!

Food Quizzes

I'm a Glazed Donut
You Are a Glazed Donut
Okay, you know that you're plain - and you're cool with that.
You prefer not to let anything distract from your sweetness.
Your appeal is understated yet universal. Everyone dig you.
And in a pinch, you'll probably get eaten.


What Condiment are You? I'm Barbeque Sauce
You Are Barbeque Sauce
You are a social person. You enjoy cooking for other people.
You are both skillful and competitive. You enjoy mastering hard tasks.
You appreciate complexity more than simplicity.

Your taste in food tends to lean toward interesting flavors.
You appreciate exotic spice combinations. You tend to like cutting edge, fusion cuisine.
You get along with all personalities from a distance. Except salsa personalities, who always seem to annoy you.


Ice Cream Personality Test
Your Ice Cream Personality:
You are an incredibly modest person. You don't feel comfortable bragging about yourself... or even receiving complements.

You are the type of person who likes to throw caution to the wind. You only live once, so you're going to live as large as possible. You are definitely a wild one!

You are a very open minded, liberal, and flexible person. You love many things. You tend to have tastes that range from down home to cosmopolitan.

You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.

You are fun loving and sweet. You tend to enjoy joking around and teasing people.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Loss

Trying to remember what it was like before I met you is like trying to remember cold on a hot July afternoon.
From the moment we met, I knew how wonderful you were and wondered how I had missed out for so long. You brought new experiences and helped me find joy when there had been hesitancy and silence before.
You were not without pain, however. You hurt me and I allowed it, over and over again. Always promising to set limits, put up boundaries, avoid what I knew you would do. And somehow, you came to me, seducing me, coming deeper into my life.

The costs are high, I paid dearly in every way possible. I continue to pay, because I miss you like a friend. Like someone who has always been there. In every situation. Joy and pain, happiness and sorrow...you remain after I have thrown away hope and love, other friends and experiences.

Always you. Without you, you are here still. Your voice speaking to me. Sometimes loud, sometimes soft but always present and available.
I know you are not like this with everyone you know. There is something about me that lets you in, lets you get to me. This weakness is why I fight you.

Monday, July 28, 2008

New Definitions

I've defined myself by a certain string of phrases for a long time...drinker, sometimes partier, puts food in mouth (because of the aforementioned)....etc. I think before those definitions I was too insecure to realize how great I had it. The struggle to fit in, the lack of knowing where I was going...all led to some really awesome self-destructive behavior.

So now there are new definitions. I don't even know what they are yet. I do know that I'm being looked after by many, and finally feel really really safe. All the distractions seem less somehow.

I'm going to take the Certified Dietary Manager test in October. It involves a drive down to Colorado Springs, a 4 hour exam, and lots of studying. Work paid for the test, which was really expensive, and Mom paid for the overpriced study guide. I have that to focus on.

I also get paid vacation starting in September. I'm probably going to have to use some of that time when I don't want to, but thats part of the way things are right now. I'm going to be able to spend time with my family and not have to give up money to do it!

The Democratic National Convention is coming to town in late August. I feel lucky I don't live close to downtown. I am just not that patient ~ with traffic, with people walking on the 16th Street Mall, with standing in line.

I'm going to be at home a lot, when I'm not working or riding my bike. E makes hemp items...I might learn to do that. But first I have to study for that expensive test that promises lots of success and rewards if I pass. ;-)

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

An Interesting Quiz....

while I procrastinate packing for the looong weekend trip to Lawrence and think about exactly what I want to eat/drink for every meal on my birthday.

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As a 1930s wife, I am
Average

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