Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I read a site called frequently and get a lot of ideas for dinner. I tend to focus more on the here and now than the future when it comes to food...Christmas is in the future after all though, and I came across this article about Samuel Adams Utopias beer . I believe there have been stronger beers and more expensive beers (Sam Adams Millennium, at least on eBay) but this one I have had and it is delicious...more like a beer-cognac than what you normally get from this brewery. I've also seen it for as little as $99 in the store. That is what I got the bottle for originally, back when I was young, foolish and had a lot of expendable cash.
If you, for some reason, would like to spoil me, this is a perfect way to do it. I promise to sip it slowly and enjoy it well into the New Year.
Friday, October 24, 2008
We're staying in CO for Thanksgiving. Have a menu and everything...its going to be a lot of fun ~ both preparing for it and enjoying "the fruits", so to speak. I get Turkey Day off as a paid holiday and am taking a 3-day weekend after as well. I'm going to miss my family but Christmas will be less than a month away. Going to Kansas for that.
Hmm, what else. I'm not writing specifics of what has happened this month because most of it I'd rather forget. No one died, no one got sick or injured and all the basics (shelter, food, job/school) stayed the same. There was just a lot of unnecessary stress that occurred all at once.
I will say that tomorrow is the Certified Dietary Manager exam in Colorado Springs. I hope it is not too difficult. A little over 70% passed when it was given this past March and my work is paying for it...I'm confident, which has more than can be said of late.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Last night I went to Crossroads Church for the first time...Its a really neat place and I'm going to keep attending.
I've always heard that it isn't possible to train a cat, but Yoda scratched my nose pretty good while jumping on me...I was laying on the couch. It doesn't really hurt but looks funny.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
1. Yoda's vet services (I still feel bad for that little dude and what he went through)
2. specific store-brand bread for a resident
3. hopefully the last groceries for awhile
What are the last three songs you downloaded:
Don't know the exact songs - but I know I recently downloaded songs from:
1. a bunch of Outkast
2. eric downloaded some Serge Tankian
3. probably rap
What are the last three places you visited?
1. Hot Sulphur Springs, CO
2. Lawrence, Kansas
3. various places in Michigan
What are your three favorite movies?
1. The Big Lebowski
2. any of Steve Carell's movies
3. Good Will Hunting
What are your three favorite possessions?
2. pictures of my family
3. my Las Vegas shirt
What are three things you can't live without?
2. my bike/my family and best friend
3. Whistle and Yoda (the cats)
What would be your three wishes?
1. to approach every situation with grace and patience
2. To love everyone and never lose my temper
3. a long,ong healthy and happy life for everyone close to me
What are three things that you have not done yet?
1. traveled to Europe
2. quit drinking completely
3. grown my own vegetables, herbs, flowers, etc
What are your 3 favorite dishes?
2. pork belly
3. spicy food/salad
What 3 celebrities would you want to hang out with most?
1. Seth Rogen
2. Natalie Portman
3. the actress that plays Olivia on Law & Order: SVU
If you could describe yourself in 3 words what would it be?
What are 3 things you are currently coveting?
1. anything from villainess.net
2. a plane ticket to kansas for Christmas
3. a Certified Dietary Manager...certification
Name 3 things you are unusually good at.
1. finding information on the internet
2. getting through difficult situations
3. dealing with physical pain
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I'm kind of curious what will happen. I doubt they will go under, because they make quite a bit of money for "the mother ship," and a couple of my friends would lose their jobs. At some point, you have to realize that you are not doing anyone a service by helping them buy something they cannot afford and now especially, will probably get repossessed anyway.
On a completely different note...
I don't really think anyone reads this blog. Which is fine. I mean, I know several people who do, on occasion but it doesn't have a very big readership. I don't think.
I love writing in it and it feels so good to express myself in a way that can be saved permanently. I wonder what my (future) children will think about their Mom, in all her crazy glory.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Later on was craft time. The residents were painting various wood items ~ tops (the spinning kind), pumpkins, etc. Apparently the paint smelled pretty good because at least one resident tried to eat it. Several others tried to drink the paint water.
Other topics right off the top of my head...
I really like Michael Cera as an actor, but he needs to learn how to play another character. Nick and Nora looks like a combination of Superbad and Juno...with a dash of the Rocker thrown in. Not interested.
I've been eating roasted jalapenos every day. I can't explain why except for that they taste so good and lately, the hotter the item, the better. And some menudo sounds so good right now!
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
I scored highest on the Calmness (#9) trait, followed by Detachment, Perfectionism, and Helpfulness.
Enneagram Test Results
Your variant is self pres
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
|You Are a Glazed Donut|
You prefer not to let anything distract from your sweetness.
Your appeal is understated yet universal. Everyone dig you.
And in a pinch, you'll probably get eaten.
What Condiment are You? I'm Barbeque Sauce
|You Are Barbeque Sauce|
You are both skillful and competitive. You enjoy mastering hard tasks.
You appreciate complexity more than simplicity.
Your taste in food tends to lean toward interesting flavors.
You appreciate exotic spice combinations. You tend to like cutting edge, fusion cuisine.
You get along with all personalities from a distance. Except salsa personalities, who always seem to annoy you.
Ice Cream Personality Test
|Your Ice Cream Personality:|
You are the type of person who likes to throw caution to the wind. You only live once, so you're going to live as large as possible. You are definitely a wild one!
You are a very open minded, liberal, and flexible person. You love many things. You tend to have tastes that range from down home to cosmopolitan.
You are a natural multitasker. You feel alive when you're doing more than one thing at a time.
You are fun loving and sweet. You tend to enjoy joking around and teasing people.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
From the moment we met, I knew how wonderful you were and wondered how I had missed out for so long. You brought new experiences and helped me find joy when there had been hesitancy and silence before.
You were not without pain, however. You hurt me and I allowed it, over and over again. Always promising to set limits, put up boundaries, avoid what I knew you would do. And somehow, you came to me, seducing me, coming deeper into my life.
The costs are high, I paid dearly in every way possible. I continue to pay, because I miss you like a friend. Like someone who has always been there. In every situation. Joy and pain, happiness and sorrow...you remain after I have thrown away hope and love, other friends and experiences.
Always you. Without you, you are here still. Your voice speaking to me. Sometimes loud, sometimes soft but always present and available.
I know you are not like this with everyone you know. There is something about me that lets you in, lets you get to me. This weakness is why I fight you.
Monday, July 28, 2008
So now there are new definitions. I don't even know what they are yet. I do know that I'm being looked after by many, and finally feel really really safe. All the distractions seem less somehow.
I'm going to take the Certified Dietary Manager test in October. It involves a drive down to Colorado Springs, a 4 hour exam, and lots of studying. Work paid for the test, which was really expensive, and Mom paid for the overpriced study guide. I have that to focus on.
I also get paid vacation starting in September. I'm probably going to have to use some of that time when I don't want to, but thats part of the way things are right now. I'm going to be able to spend time with my family and not have to give up money to do it!
The Democratic National Convention is coming to town in late August. I feel lucky I don't live close to downtown. I am just not that patient ~ with traffic, with people walking on the 16th Street Mall, with standing in line.
I'm going to be at home a lot, when I'm not working or riding my bike. E makes hemp items...I might learn to do that. But first I have to study for that expensive test that promises lots of success and rewards if I pass. ;-)
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
In a lot of ways, I'm not sure critical thinking has ever been encouraged. People are often threatened by those who go against the grain; those who speak out in a new direction.
And then I thought about the free thought/ hippie movement of the 60's...was that rewarded? In a lot of ways, counterculture of every kind has become important in hindsight. I wonder what the non-hippies, those who needed to be providers, those part of a conservative society, thought about the people who will always be symbols of that time period. Did hippies create change or simply point out what needed to be corrected?
It is easy to look back and say, "I should've done that differently" or "why did I waste so much time?" If you are not willing to act, if you are paralyzed in some regard, you cannot grow. Changes do not need to be ground-breaking or even noticed by others, but they need to happen.
We cannot be the same person we were a decade ago.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
One quote I am reflecting on more and more these days:
"There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. Yet that will be the beginning. "
~ Louis L'Amour
Thinking about that made me realize I have kept none of my New Years' resolutions, because the reverse is also true. You have to finish before you can begin.
I have a fairly good start on my resolutions now, which is more scary than empowering.
They say that making a serious mistake one time is natural, normal and understood by most. (Depending on what it is, of course.) Doing it again can be considered stupid, defiant or just not caring. I have been guilty of all of those things. While I wasn't capable of changing before, it is now time to do what I have refused to think about and work on.
What I have, I care about too much ~ it is too important to screw up.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
When the days flow together and the sadness of loss becomes overwhelming, the thoughts of leaving all the drama, headache and emotional intensity of the life I lead behind intensify. To go somewhere, even for a little while, where no one expects anything and I am free to do what I please, sounds so nice.
I am realizing responsibilities that arise out of mistakes, of escaping one situation and finding yourself, as if in a dream, right in the middle of another, are beyond comprehension.
When I was younger, I used to ask questions about why things were the way they were. And then I would ask why, were those things the way they were. And I always got answers, which made perfect sense according to where I was at that time. As I grow older, I realize that many of those answers were falss, but gave me hope and the ability to act, instead of being rendered helpless ~ weighed down by the baggage of life in general.
And yet, every day, I cannot help but look for things, people, actions, etc that give true meaning to what I struggle with. And that keeps me here.
Monday, May 12, 2008
It is exactly what it looks like, a grilled cheese sandwich with mayo and breaded fish. MMMM.
In other news, this month is full of some pretty exciting changes, events etc. E is done with school until the fall, his friend Abby is coming out to visit, my friend Maelynn is coming out to visit, the kitchen at work has closed and is being remodeled...there's a new apartment in an entirely different part of town (a lot closer to work, which is nice) and more stuff that you'll have to contact me to find out. =)
Monday, April 28, 2008
Anyway, I just came across this article: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/24317073/?GT1=43001
Basically, the lady had purchased rats, intending them for snake food. Maybe she had problems going through with this. Anyway, the rats overran her house, were "rescued" and now are going to be given/sold as pets. The rats would not survive in the wild because the lady fed them cat food.
I love rats. I have had them for over 7 years now and they are really good pets, as is mentioned in the article. However, I'm not sure these rescue rats would be suitable for pets. They've basically been running wild, for their entire lives and are probably not used to human contact or interaction of any kind. They did find 10 babies, which probably have the best chance of being good pets.
My dad had a rat named Violet who was a rescue from the Humane Society. She would run out of her hiding places to try to bite you. These rats, more than likely, will be just like Violet.
I'm afraid that the people who adopt these rats will probably either feed them to snakes or let them go into the wild when it becomes apparent they won't work as pets.
My suggestion, while not cost-effective or efficient, is to spay or neuter each rat and let them live in a colony of sorts. Have the lady who let them breed uncontrollably pay for this, or for them to be humanely euthanized. Don't make one person's negligence a bunch of rat owners problem.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
So colorful makeup, (especially when it is limited edition, no longer available in stores and sold for a semi-reasonable price on eBay) rocks my world a teensy bit.
The old Emily would've snapped one of these babies up, no problem, but I'm going to resist. I need to save. Hopefully posting this here will help get the Clinique Black Honey Deeps Limited Edition Set out of my system.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
But, I've always been intrigued by Cuba. I've seen the country from a mile away and it looked rugged and nice. We weren't allowed to get closer than that. Because of the embargo, that country has always been kind of mysterious, kind of intriguing. One place that Anthony Bourdain on No Reservations couldn't go. They have mostly-male supper clubs, with fascinating cuisine....
Anyway, with the new leader, this might be the first foreign country I make it to. Probably not though, because this article sounds hopeful. A lot of changes need to be made, though.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
I really think that using fake "cheez" to duplicate macaroni and cheese is wrong. Its not real food, and I have more of a problem with preservatives and additives than a piece of beef.
If you want to be vegan, get rid of all the dishes you want to copy that have meat in them and decide you want to create really great food that doesn't need a meat substitute. Don't get me wrong, there are wonderful entrees that have tempeh/tofu/beans, etc in them that have merit on their own accord.
I just found a chile-beer marinade for a vegan dish that would be great for meat..maybe there is a double-standard here.
Whenever I think about food for too long, at least in a practical sense, I think of the store where got started in this industry. The older I am, the more I work with people, (to be honest, I didn't have to deal with many strangers/customers/guests before I turned 24), ]the more I realize that that place was flawed. They didn't treat people in a way that made them feel comfortable, unless they were regulars, meaning people who spent a lot of time and/or money. In fact, a lot of the time I felt really uncomfortable and forced to fit into a mold based on who they thought I was.
I'll stop now. I don't miss the place, meaning the city, I miss the lifestyle. And that is shallow, but honest.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Anyway, I tried a recipe with agave nectar in place of a refined sugar or honey (which isn't vegan) and really really didn't like it. I don't mind foods that taste fake..Diet Coke, which is alright or pretty good, depending on my mood and Splenda, which I deal with when there's no alternative.
Agave Nectar tastes fake and is real. This I have a problem with. Take some honey, add water until its really runny and add a slight bit of lemon. There you go.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Weezer's Rivers Cuomo released a solo album back in December...I either overlooked it as crap or just didn't pay attention, can't remember. Its pretty good stuff. The video for Lover in the Snow kind of reinforced my opinion that Rivers is a big...jerk.
Maybe these are the beginnings of me seeing Weezer like I did back in 1999. That was a good year. 2006 was better ( not for them, for me).
I digress. Check it out. I'm not actually paying any money for it. Made that mistake with Maladroit. I'm going to have to hear the 6th album in its entirety (when its released in June 2008) and then might, maybe, perhaps I'll purchase it.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
And then, all of a sudden, there is Bracketology, conference tournaments and chances for thousands of dollars that you and I, quite frankly, have a snowball's chance in hell of winning. But just the games, the times when you can watch to see if your team or that Cinderella (Georgia, Drake and UMBC, in that order) can pull out a victory, are worth it.
It brings me back to the days when my mom and dad would post a wall-sized bracket on the closet door and fill it out as the games were played. We'd watch the Big 8, and now Big 12 tournament and cheer for KU every step of the way. So there is a certain amount of nostalgia and family ties that go into this.
All I'm going to say is this: If you have no idea who a team is, you've never watched their opponents and aren't even sure who their best player is, please do not put any money on this team. I don't even care of your best friend's uncle the bookie says to. Just don't. Its March Madness and anything can happen.
except if this team is Kansas. You should put all your money on Kansas.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
I guess i could say, "Its been awhile since I posted a word of the day" but instead I'm going to just post one without further discussion.
Portmanteau. noun. plural: portmanteaux. A a word that fuses two or more words or word parts to give a combined or loaded new meaning.
I think my dad said this word to me. It seems familiar. He also taught me quite a few words throughout the course of casual conversation that I will maybe list here.
A portmanteau you might be familiar with: spork. Not a spoon. Not a fork. But something different. And when I got them from KFC, less useful.
I looked up the word blaxploitation, when it came up on Wikipedia regarding an ODB song. The song itself came from a movie of said genre.
Blaxploitation is an portmanteau of "black" and "exploitation" and refers to movies set in the early 1970s, usually in the ghetto and dealing with pimps, drug dealers, Afros and/or SHAFT.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Instead, I'm right where I want to be. There's a certain contentment, certain peace of mind that comes with taking risks, dealing with what happens and knowing you made the right choices (ok, maybe 85% right).
Right now I'm looking forward to taking the exam to become a Certified Dietary Manager. But right this second I just want it to be warm. Something above 50 degrees, a lot of sun and not much wind.
Monday, February 04, 2008
The coolest thing is, after about a week, I'm totally at peace with it all. Everything was completely my fault, which makes it easier in a way. Many people can get away with their mistakes; I cannot.
Even though there are a lot of people around to support me, there is a certain amount of loneliness that comes with the uncertain and inevitable. At the end of the day, as my mother once said, you have to take care of yourself. And sometimes that just means taking it one day at a time.
This song is on a commercial...it makes me happy...enjoy!
Sara Bareilles Love Song Lyrics
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
~Henry Ward Beecher
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
"Yes, these events are true, yet sometimes they seemed to have happened to someone else, and I often feel like a curious onlooker or someone trying to remember a dream. "
I was asked yesterday what my resolutions are and I responded that I want to make sure that they can be followed through on before making them known. Today I realize that there is no other option ~ to grow and become better, I need to have courage in every aspect of my life, to have wisdom to know what needs to be changed and the ability to follow through. The hardest part about this (almost overwhelming) resolution is that I can't do it alone. It is so much easier to rely solely on yourself and then, when failure occurs, to say well, I did my best.
A lot of life isn't about doing your best. It is picking up the pieces in whatever arrangement they fall in and putting them together again. Most times, the new configuration is better, or at least better suited to the new circumstances. You can't put a square peg into a round hole. =)
Both great and terrible happened in 2007. Much of it was because of choices I made. What I learned: you can't control other people ~ their decisions, their opinions, their ideas about what needs to occur. The people you need in your life are the ones who let you be yourself, who will be honest but also understanding.
I also learned: to lead others; that growth is painful and change inevitable, pain doesn't come with a timeline, jealousy is my Achilles heel, its ok to be alone but I'm not designed to be like that.
I'll keep you updated...hold me to my resolution!